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I miss St Nicks!

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Went back for the Sports Carnival today.

Nostalgia I say. It’s as if we never left, and yet I miss it so so so much!

The warmth, the love, the unity… that’s what I call School Spirit!

Ah well. I’m the only G8 member who went today who’s in Yellow so obviously I didn’t go sit by myself in the Yellow contingent. I wore white so it wouldn’t be that obvious and went over to Green to join Yuanbing and Chirp. Estee joined us and she was in blue!

Anyway here are some pictures from Yuanbing’s new phone!

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Manda looks animated as ever.

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Love it, love it, LOVE IT!

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Bingo Mingo. See the sea of Green people?

Before going down I was at home busy baking for who else but my greedy fellow dancers (only kidding!) ‘cos PT resumes tomorrow morning, after like 192837454 years of not even brisk walking. I hope I don’t collapse in the middle of the track and embarrass myself! But yeah, I made Banana Nut Muffins that look quite edible, hope you guys will like it!

After training tomorrow we’ve a whole lot of activities. Meeting with the new J1 EXCO, plus of course we’re gonna have our celebration dinner/party at Cheng Gong’s place! Can hardly wait! Maybe I should bake something for the dinner too. Hmm.

Oh and today we went to Ang Mo Kio Hub (say it with me, Kaye! LOL) for dinner. But of course, I had my favourite fish soup. And of course, we started talking about all the silly silly things we used to do back in St Nicks. Being mean to some of the teachers and being mean to each other, goodness me it made us all laugh so hard the people around were staring daggers at us. But yeah, I enjoyed every bit of all that reminiscing! I’d give anything to relive those days, man.

Ah well, my pink blanket beckons. And I haven’t been sleeping much so better go get some rest now!

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April 27, 2007 at 11:45 pm

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The reality of it all

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If I’m not wrong I remember saying at one point that I’d been thinking a lot lately. And I didn’t bother elaborating ‘cos SYF was more than enough to handle?

Well, I just got back from my maternal grandparents’ place a while ago. Naturally, the thoughts came back again. I think my uncle and aunt sort of dug up more photos to put around the house so it was like a walk down Memory Lane for me.

Two weeks ago I walked into my grandparents’ room for the first time since my grandma passed away. The last time I was in there was immediately after we got the call that she was gone. But at that point in time, I think I was too overwhelmed with emotions to be thinking about what all this meant. And in the days following that, in spite of sometimes having time to myself to look back and reflect, it never really occurred to me that it had happened.

For the past 10 months since her diagnosis she’d fought on. During our weekly gatherings at her place she’d try and make it a point to get out of bed so she could come down and make sure we’d all had dinner. In her not-so-good days we’d go up to her room to say hello and spend time with her, and as much as she’d rather rest in bed, she’d get up and dig around in her drawers for souvenirs she had gotten on her trips to places all over the world. She’d share stories about how and when she’d gone on these trips, show us antique coins and dollar notes, her famous collection of jade and gold and what not. I guess it was this will of hers to keep on fighting, something she’d always been blessed with, that kept us going too. It made me wanna be strong for her, even though it pained to see her growing thinner by the day.

When her conditioning started deteriorating, she pretty much spent most of her time in bed. And even then, she’d try and talk to us, ask about school and tell us not to worry about her. It became harder to hold back the tears just seeing her fade away. And as much as we should have been prepared weeks before she went away, I never really could imagine Saturday evenings without her spirited self around.

Just looking at the photographs in her room of her smiling ever so gleefully – the perfect portrayal of someone who always believed in living life to the fullest, I couldn’t help but start to think. That night I left her place with a heavy heart, and I guess until then it never really hit me. Of course, there wasn’t much time to sit and reflect in the days following that (with dance practices and schoolwork piling up) but whenever I was having one of those down-and-out days where all the unhappy thoughts seem to flood your mind, I’d think about her. I’d think about the months of suffering she’d been put through, and try and be happy by telling myself that she’s gone to a better place. That’s what we all tell ourselves when things like that happen, but it never really takes away the pain.

For the past few weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot more about my grandmother and about the reality of what’s happened. About how we all have to leave this earth someday and leave the ones we love behind. I’ve always had the privilege of having such a complete family and being in such close contact with my grandparents and cousins and uncles and aunts since young, plus my grandma had always been such an integral part of my life, it’s just so different now that she’s not around anymore.

Sigh.

I think I ought to stop here. I’ve been blogging excessively lately when I ought to be catching up with schoolwork and this is such an emo post. Ah well, at least I got some things off my chest so hopefully I’ll be able to concentrate a little better.

We’re gonna watch Phantom of the Opera tomorrow evening – can hardly wait!

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April 22, 2007 at 1:08 am

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Like old times.

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Yesterday was a wonderful, wonderful day. I met up with 5 wonderful, wonderful people whom I’ve missed so, so much!

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Yup, that’s us.

We had dessert (3 different cakes and gelato from Da Paolo Gastronomia near Serene Centre, and absolutely divine ice cream from Awfully Chocolate!) while reminiscing about all the wonderful, wonderul times (pardon my limited vocabulary) back in school as well as little sharings (or complaints, in some cases) about The Boyfriends. Really, really funny. Plus it’s been ages (and I really mean ages) since all 6 of us sat down together for a nice long chat so I really enjoyed every bit of it!

Thanks, guys, for the wonderful meet-up session! I’m so glad we could all make it.

See you again in July, Sara Bay!

After that I went to watch Chermaine perform in Swingtime! (RJ’s Jazz Concert) Needless to say, her voice was absolutely, absolutely wonderful! Literally made my hair stand, in a good way of course. And I was SO amazed by how good she was. Whoever marries that girl is One Lucky Guy, right Cher? LOL.

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So anyway, congrats Chermaine! I’m so proud of you!

Alrightey then, shall go get some work done. Got so much to catch up on!

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April 21, 2007 at 12:15 pm

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SYF Photos!

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FINALLY.

SYF 2007 Photos!

Enjoy!

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April 20, 2007 at 12:25 am

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The Winds of Change

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Can you feel it blowing?

Figuratively, that is. Definitely not literally considering how humid today’s weather is.

But yeah, point is: I’ve a newfound freedom!

Had my first homecooked meal in goodness knows how long today. The last time I had a proper dinner at home (i.e. not cereal with yoghurt or Subway from J8) was like… 2 months ago? What a life huh.

Ah well, of course it’s not complete freedom ‘cos there’s SO MUCH work to be done.

Oh, and I went to see my family doctor today about that leg of mine that’s been hurting. He says I overworked the muscle and probably strained it. (That reminds me, I’m supposed to go take my medicine.) So I’m supposed to rest for TWO WEEKS. No PE and Dance for TWO WEEKS?! That’s so not happening! I’m gonna take my NAPFA test with the rest of the Chinese Dancers next week in any case. So actually I don’t exactly see why I went to the doctor in the first place.

Hmm.

That aside,  I’ve been trying very very very hard to upload pictures from SYF onto ImageStation but I think the photos are huge so it’s taking ages. Almost done though! So be patient guys, I’ll put the link here ASAP!

There’s Econs tuition in an hour. Better scram for now.

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April 19, 2007 at 7:01 pm

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GOLD WITH HONOURS!

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CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?

We all went berserk in the canteen after we got the news. It was such a nerve-wrecking experience just waiting for Xin Ying’s sms. Once I saw her name appear on my phone, followed by the wonderful wonderful news…

I literally screamed.

Not that loudly I hope. The lady at Stall 2 thought I was mad ‘cos I was supposed to make an order. But yeah, that was followed by screaming and running and crying like a mad woman to Ivy in the middle of the canteen and giving her a huge huge HUGE hug! Of course Susie was there too so I hugged her; the poor girl was crying so hard too!

Tears of sheer joy, relief, HAPPINESS! (Okay that’s synonymous with joy, but yeah, you get what I mean)

OMG I love you guys SO SO SO MUCH!

All our hard work – the 6-times-a-week practices, the tears, the sweat, the physical training sessions and all the sacrifices – finally paid off!

Oh and if you’re wondering what happened to the photos that we previously up…

Due to the overwhelming response, I have decided that this silly blog host doesn’t upload pictures very well.

SO…

I’ll put the pictures up on ImageStation and you guys can go get it from there! I’ll put the link here once I’m done.

In the meantime, well done guys! We need a celebration dinner/lunch soon! I need to give every single one of you a BIG bear hug! Still can’t believe we made it!

Oh yes, and I went down to Turf City to support Yuanbing today. She came in 12th!

I’m so proud of you, my dear! Enjoy the brownies and the M&Ms, you deserve a nice long break and a good treat! Meet up soon!

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April 18, 2007 at 12:07 am

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2 days!

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Two days.

TWO DAYS!

SYF’S IN TWO DAYS!

Good golly. Someone slap me. I can’t believe time has passed so quickly!

The seemingly neverending practices (of course, there’s still Dance Night but still) have finally come down to The Day We’ve All Been Waiting For.

Ah well.

We had prac in school today. Yep, on a Sunday. Tell me about it man. But yeah, we Chinese Dancers are a hardworking bunch! Hopefully it all pays off on Tuesday.

Come to think of it, it’s kinda scary. Really scary, in fact. But we can do it! I know we can! 🙂

Oh and we got our new dance tees today. I think it’s nice! Thanks Ivy and Su Wan and everyone else who contributed for all the hard work! It’s a job well done, I must say!

I’ve been thinking quite a lot lately. Amidst the business of schoolwork and dance practices and logistics and letter-drafting. Once in a while my mind drifts off and I start reflecting on what’s been going on, and sometimes I can’t help but feel a little lost and overwhelmed. I’ve come to accept the way things have turned out, but in a way I wish it never happened either.

Ah, not making much sense so I shall stop here. I’ll elaborate after SYF when there’s more time to think things through.

Such an incoherent entry. I ought to just keep quiet.

Oh and lucky me. The worst thing that can happen to you 2 days before SYF (okay, maybe not the worst) happened to me today!

That’s the way, man.

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April 15, 2007 at 10:38 pm

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JIA LAT.

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(That’s Hokkien, I’m pretty sure this time – Suat corrected my last mistake, what an embarrassment!)

I have 25 pages of notes from the EXCO Interview on Saturday to retype (would’ve been a lot more inconvenient if not for Zhi Xu so thanks dear!), on top of logistics to settle for Dance Night, an Econs case study to do, a GP essay to write, my long overdue Bio SPA practice, a proposal for additional Dance funds to draft, tons and tons of lecture notes to catch up with, and SYF to worry about!

Let’s say it again, JIA LAT!

What on earth am I even doing here!

Anyway, this morning started off with me in a pretty foul mood. I was pretty much grumbling to myself on the way to church. Better still, I have no idea why. Must be PMS! Explains the pimple outbreak too.

Or maybe… I’m just stressed.

Been trying to read Macroeconomics Aims & Issues lecture notes since goodness knows when (yup I’m that slow). And I haven’t finished! There’s too much information to process and the size of this brain of mine, like one of my fellow dancers said (I can’t remember who), is inversely proportional to the size of my head, sadly. So yeah, I’m pretty much doomed.

Technological knowledge refers to society’s understanding about how the world works. (That I get.) Human capital refers to the resources expended transmitting this understanding to the labour force. (Say, “What?”)

On second thought, I think I get it now. LOL!

Okay I’m just embarrassing myself on the World Wide Web so I should just shut up now. What I need right now is a nice looooooong holiday in the Maldives.

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Somebody shoot me please.

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April 9, 2007 at 12:06 am

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Above All

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Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There’s no way to measure what you’re worth

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

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April 6, 2007 at 10:23 pm

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Random, incoherent thoughts

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Today was peng san day. That means faint or collapse in Hokkien if I’m not wrong.

Anyway we had practice from 10.30 to 3 today. Actually prac today wasn’t all that tiring. But I think it’s a cumulative effect. Haven’t been sleeping very much the past few days and it hasn’t been easy trying to keep myself awake during lessons. I think I’m a little more alive during practices ‘cos everyone goes a little crazy. Then again, maybe it’s just me.

After prac today was Econs tuition. Yup, on Good Friday. I’m a Good girl. Okay not funny but yeah, point is I was trying very very very hard to keep awake. Hardly had energy to write anything and there were mosquitoes biting me so for once I was pretty dead during tuition. Kaye can probably testify.

After tuition was Good Friday mass at St Ignatius. I found a new nice hymn called ‘Above All’! The lyrics are really really nice. I shall go try and download it or something. Heard it for the first time last night at Risen Christ ‘cos we were visiting a couple of churches like we do every Maundy Thursday and I’ve been humming it ever since.

Ah well, there’s EXCO interviews in school tomorrow. I’m supposed to bring my laptop so I can type their responses instead of having to write down 17 different responses. But something tells me I’m not gonna be able to type that fast so I’m having second thoughts.

Just got back a while ago from the supermarket. It’s like my favourite place in the world! LOL what a life huh? But yeah, I like the supermarket. You get to check out cool new cereal and baking mixes and recipes and yoghurt and whole wheat biscuits! Okay, quite obviously I need a more exciting pastime.

OH YES. GUESS WHAT PREMIERES ON CHANNEL 5 TOMORROW!

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Faints and dies.

I haven’t watched it in ages! Finally, my Landon Carter. I’m guessing it’s gonna get me all deluded again so that means an additional 10 years of spinsterhood.

Hope not man. LOL!

Alrightey shall be a good secretary and get all the administrative stuff we’ll need for tomorrow done now. Have a good weekend guys!

Oh yes, and

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY GAVAN LEONG WAI-KIT!

(“Alright…” Haha I’m a good classmate!)

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April 6, 2007 at 9:57 pm

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